I got tagged by the lovely Andi to write a post about the things I am thankful for. Andi very bravely opened up about her mental health struggles in her post and how it’s affected her life for quite a while now. I’ve recently told my own story about my current situation with my physical health and thrown in the odd mention of my struggle with anxiety. When you’re going through a really tough time, no matter what exactly it is, sometimes your view point can get a bit blurry. Anything good in your life can either go a bit unnoticed as you’re either wrapped in your own misery blanket or those things can become just as terrifying as they’re another thing to lose.
I’ve always been a pretty resilient person, I don’t know how or why but I find it quite easy to hide things and put on a brave face. Obviously we all have days where it’s just not an option and curling up in bed is the only way to get through it without going off the rails a bit. I’m only human and so are you. Being thankful and grateful for what you have around you is something that’s always stuck with me. I don’t think people will ever be truly happy if they’re constantly thinking they’ll be happy once they get this certain promotion or find “the one” or have a baby etc. It’s so great to have goals and aspirations but what’s not healthy is depending your sanity and joy on them. Anyway, in no particular order here are some of many things that I am very thankful for.
I think everyones family is dysfunctional or odd to a certain extent but you love them and appreciate them for what they are. I’m very lucky to have such a great bond with a few members of my family, especially my mum. I definitely would’ve had triple the amount of breakdowns without her helping me out on so many occasions. We barely ever argue but we can never stay mad at each other on the odd occasion that we do. She’s a true hero and my best pal and my life would most definitely suck without her. I uploaded a post about her recently on Mothers Day that you can read here too.
I mean really, I’m never quiet in outing what a babe he is. Jake is quite literally the loveliest person I’ve ever met and someone I really hope is in my life forever. I can’t begin to explain how much he’s done for me, especially over the past year. I‘ve probably changed what I want to do with my life about 12 times since we’ve been together and he’s enthusiastically supported every venture. He’s also supported every hair colour, weird makeup look and blog post I pull him into. He cooks for me, brushes my hair and shows me so much love on my bad days but also runs around with me and celebrates on my good ones. I won’t get too soppy but I’m so excited to see where our future goes, 10/10 would raise multiple humans and own dogs with him. He’s my lobster (you’ll only get that if you’re a friends fanatic like us).
For some reason, I have been gifted with being incredibly motivated when it comes to things I love doing. It can actually get really annoying as I don’t give myself well needed rest a lot of the time as my brain is constantly switched on thinking “let’s do this, let’s do that”. Don’t get me wrong, I do have periods where I feel like a literal deflated balloon and do not want to move but this happens less the more passionate I am about something, I find. I’m also fiercely determined to make a fabulous life for myself and for the people I love and no matter what life throws at me, I will succeed. I will have a great job that I love, I will have my own cute little family and a good 5 or so dogs and I will be extremely happy. Under no circumstance will I let obstacles, no matter how big or small, stop me from reaching those things. No matter how long it takes, I know I’ll get there and I won’t give up.
This is a wide topic. When I say friends I mean my best friends, my online friends, my long distance friends, my friends I only see every now and again but still show love. If you’ve supported me at all over the past year in my quite frankly most awful time, consider yourself in this category. I’ve had friends really disappoint and hurt me with their lack of presence and compassion but I’ve also had friends I never expected step up and be a huge part of my life now. I’m so grateful for all the genuine and true friends I have, especially the ones that message me often asking how I am. You’ve no idea just how much it can brighten my day!
Nacho is quite literally my little ray of sunshine. Some days I want to kill her as she wants to be stuck to me 24/7 and can whine like a little hyena but most of the time it’s all love and constant cuddles. She’s the sweetest little friend and companion. She always knows when I’m feeling unwell or sad and is just happy to curl up next to me and provide warmth and love. Sometimes she attempts to lick me to death too or bring me a shoe/toy she’s chewed the eyes out of which is also great but gross. I don’t know what I’d do without the little chubby fur baby, I’m so thankful she’s my dog.
My creativity and talents are my outlet for everything. Every emotion, every event in my life. Whether it be writing, music, photography, tattoos, fashion, makeup etc. I am so thankful that I have so many ways to express myself, my emotions and my personality. Not that I’m necessarily saying I’m an expert or any good at them all but I’ve put a lot of effort into getting where I am with a lot of them and I’m proud of that. I’m also grateful that the older I get, the less I care about what people think. This encourages me to do all of this more as I feel I am me when I’m being creative. I don’t want to tie myself to one title or one niche anymore. There are so many things I love doing and I feel like this blog helps me showcase nearly all of them at once.
I could go on forever and I apologise because I kind of have gone on a bit here. Despite my struggles, I’m a very lucky person. I’ll never forget that and I’ll do my absolute best not to take it for granted. As my mum says, “there’s always something to be grateful for”. Try and think of something every day even if it’s tiny – guaranteed you’ll be feeling more positive and better about your life in no time. To end I just want to say that my inbox is always open for anyone who may need to talk. I’m going to finish with this quote as it really resonated with me and I think it’s fitting for anyone going through a hard time.
“You don’t drown by falling in the water, you drown by staying there.” – Edwin Louis Cole